Dispirited (2026) Sabancaya 🇸🇪 Sweden

Something growing, relentlessly writhing
Swollen flesh, swollen wounds
So tired I can barely move
Oh I pray that this pain will be removed
(Your sins)
What have I done to deserve this?
(Have brought)
Is it a punishment from God?
(Disgrace)
I pray and I pray but it isn't helping
(Upon us)
Please God forgive me!
Ghostly figures, white robes and garments
Drain my blood, drain my marrow
Scan my skull and pelvis
A sterile prison, a clock that hesitates with every tick.
Why won't no one tell me what is going on?
Forworn and sedated, sleeplessly dreaming
I feel his anger pierce my bones
So tired but silently screaming
Ambient beeps and whirs relentlessly drones
Inside my deteriorating mind
My salvation has been deprived
By the cause of my disbelief?
My sentence delivered in a pitiful tone
OSTEOSARCOMA
The more I try to keep them out, the louder they will get.
Why hasn't he answered my prayers yet?
Another day
(another regret)
Stolen from me!
(Another breath)
You have led me
(Down this stray path)
You have led me
(to my inner wrath)
His intent
(I can't understand)
I wither
(every day that pass)
Every day could be my last

This seed has been sown
Growing out of my control
Left and disowned
Yet again on my own

Do not, oppose God's will
Blasphemous procedures
Satan lurks in these rooms

Yet another lie to be told

Why? Why won't you care? Close your eyes and pretend it isn't there?
All this despair? Spare your thoughts and prayers I dont want to fucking hear

Stories of a promised land
The choice lies calm in your hands
Show your trust to God
Just give in and do as we say
If you should misbehave
If you find your power through hate
Then for you my son only hell awaits

I feel his presence all over me
This darkness I've been taught to flee
It reeks of sulphur as his hand turns to me
What could he ever want from me?
Maybe he is the answer I seek?
Maybe he knows what is yet to be revealed?

Why? Why won't you care? Close your eyes and pretend it isn't there?
All this despair? Spare your thoughts and prayers, He's no longer here

Violent scream shrieks through my head
I wake up drenched in sweat as I am dragged out of my bed
Pale gasping faces, frozen with dread
He clenches his fists and takes aim for my head

Could not reveal what I had seen
Yet only faint memories
A mirage of broken dreams
Where He granted my wish to see
See beyond these lies that held me
Soon my mind shall be free
I've seen the truth and your paradise will never speak to me

Lied down and felt his warmth
Watched as it all slowly ripped apart
Cold and lonely once again I've been lied too
BUT NOW I'VE FOUND MY TRUTH

Let the story be told
Let His guidance be your sympathy
Ask and He shall answer
May His words bring health and apathy

No mortal has the power
No mortal has control
Mere men can not defy Him
His law is ours to hold

Your pain is His affection
It's all part of the plan
For in the everblack
All will come to light

For His cause we fight
For they appear at night
The demons made of shadows
These souls are cursed with blight

They're gonna tear you apart
Dissect your every organ
Crack your fucking skull (open)
And look behind the curtains

I've given you all I got
My soul, my mind, my blood
Your disobedience only makes you more of a coward
There is no path, beyond the scope of light
Thou art neither lord nor saviour
But how shall I survive?
In your presence I am weak
(In their eyes I am just meek)
But go away and I will perish
Fear numbs the mind
Always been blind
Struggling with a purpose I can't find
A gruesome death i've been assigned
Another (soul left behind)

They're gonna tear you apart
Dissect your every organ
Crack your fucking skull (open)
And look behind the curtains

Patterns in the scars
Paintings in the cuts
Tunnel Vision
All I see is my own reflection

Unanswered
By the holy spirit
My alleged
Salvation

Set me free from the eternal burden

"Though you have fallen, you will rise
When one sits in darkness the lord will be their light"
I endure hell just to prove your faith?
When the time comes, you shall meet me face to face

You make me suffer, but you could never meet my eyes
This pain is just your deepest fear in disguise
I die for nothing, and still you fucking complain
Come and face me once again when it's time to meet our end

Rise! You shall rise!
Let your light guide me?

Blind! You are blind, blinded by
The light your lord has promised

Another religion of peace
Nothing that will ever ease
Pain is the only constant you've ever let me believe
Wait til he realise
I can now see through your lies
Why let me die for nothing knowing only pain from my life

You make me suffer, but you could never meet my eyes
My pain is just your deepest fear in disguise
I die for nothing, and still you fucking complain
Come and face me once again when it's time to meet our end

Rise! You shall rise!
Let your light guide me?

Blind! You are blind, blinded by
The light your lord has promised

Everything keeps spinning, trying to get a hold of reality
Your right to listen was taken from you it seems to me
Promised an eternity of paradise and it seems to be
Far to gone, you already lost what you seek

Rise! You shall rise!
Let your light guide me?

Blind! You are blind, blinded by
The light your lord has promised

Christ! You must obey our christ!
Even if darkness shall fall

Die! And when you die
You will still burn in the fiery depths
Same as everyone else

Turn from the cross, as it engulfs in flames
Watch when I rise, as you scream in vain

Lit your book ablaze
See the flames as they rage
See your world collapse
Your sacred words turning to ash

Hands of the Father
You can't push me further
Same old look of disgrace
Another strike towards my face

Down with your world order
Take your beliefs with you down into your grave
Your reign over me is over
I'm sure your Christ makes you feel safe

Tired to the brink of collapse
But the chaos inside me fills me with wrath
Look me in my eyes when I break off their heads
Porcelain lies pestered with dread

From the day I was born I was showered with deceit
Lies, false promises, an all you can eat
Build your life on hatred and watch people burn
Remember it ain't wrong when it's all for your God

If God put me here and loves me so
Why the hell did He conjure this curse in my bones
Can a God have infinite love
When He tortures His children while standing above

Tired to the brink of collapse
But the chaos inside me fills me with wrath
Look me in my eyes when I break off their heads
Porcelain lies pestered with dread

All I ever
Received from you
Heaps of suffering
Filled me with wrath

You perceive me
As a demon
So a demon
I shall become

I've had enough of you
Filthy scum through and through
I'm clearly not worthy
Years and years of abuse

Trust your God to guide you
Toward your place to rest
Heed my warning
I will bring you down with me

Your time has come
There is nothing I can do but to face the truth
I can't see myself (next to you)
The distorted resonance from my crumbling bones
Has deafened all i've ever known
A midnight mass
Abducted by my flesh and blood
A last resort (to expel this so called evil)
But you won't make it out unscathed
Between the holy pages lays the steel of retribution
My blinded eyes were deceived to see
Forced into a lie that I can't believe
Don't know what's real (What is real?)
I need a path to relief
All that remains of me is a hollow soul begging for salvation
My time has come, but you can't take my will to fight
Born into hate (HATE)
Isolated from the world I was forced into
Blinded by rage now I'll punish you too
YOU TOO!!!
Help me quiet this hell in my mind
This lifeless husk i'll leave for them to find
There is no God here to hide behind
Can you smell the sulphur? Seems your path was misaligned
Your trembling voice ricochets of the walls
Your dying screams forever will echo in these halls
Guts out for God to see
His faithful servant down on his knees
Since birth you have done his bidding
Don't fear me, the one who kills your body
Fear your beloved christ
He who kills your soul
My blinded eyes were deceived to see
Forced into a lie that I can't believe
Don't know what is real. (What is real?)
Your death shall be my path to relief!
Ljuset bleknar for vart hugg du far
Din kropp oppnas upp i ett dussintal sar
Fruktlost motstand
Av jord ar du kommen och jord skall du ater bli

Collapse to the ground
A final thud
Sends the room into
Silence

The blood of father seeps between
The cracks of Marble

Cold still hands
Wrapped around your sacred writing
Drenched in blood of transgression

Lifeless
Body
Undecipherable gaze

Staring
Watching
Towards the ceiling fresco

Serenity
Keeps me warm despite this

Gruesome
Horrid
Scene of betrayal

Thoughts and feelings are fading away
Rotting flesh is all that can stay
Dismembered and disgraced in the house of the lord
A smile on my lips as I let it all go

Slipping in
Slipping out
Of my consciousness
Red as roses
Pale as snow
My soul is trying to let go

Sinking deeper
Through the floor
I welcome Death
With open arms
To guide me through his door

Flickering
Lighting
Glimmer in beautiful green

How could
I fear
Something so serene

Fragments
Protruding
Reveals a path for my soul

Painless
Peaceful
I depart from this life

Father and son
Fallen as one
I will not run
From what I have done

Damnation is imminent
Awaiting deliverance
In deafening silence
My soul slips from my hands

Thoughts and feelings are fading away
Brittle bones is all that can stay
Contorted and fragile are the spikes peeking through
A smile on my lips as I let it all go

Sins and virtues are fading away
The epitaph on our tomb is all that will stay
Contorted and fragile are the spikes peeking through
A smile on my lips as I look back at you

Thoughts and feelings are fading away
Brittle bones is all that can stay
Contorted and fragile are the spikes peeking through
A smile on my lips as I let it all go

Sins and virtues are fading away
The epitaph on our tomb is all that can stay
Contorted and fragile are the spikes peeking through
A smile on my lips as I look back at you