Sabancaya
Dispirited

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• 1. Obedience (03:45)
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  Walk the aisle! Wear the gown!
  All that you do not know
  Is all part of the devil's song
  Never alone, is the one who chooses the path of God
  Never alone is the one who calls heaven his home
  
  Clear visions of the streets of gold
  Would A life without Him just be empty and cold?
  The pearly gates are standing wide open
  But only if you
  Promise that you will
  
  JUST!
  
  Fall in line
  (Give your life)
  His love will last forever this time
  
  Another promise
  (another lie?)
  Wonder what secrets lie inside!
  
  Hear the bell toll, obey, under His crown
  Blurry visions, lost and never found
  
  You have to pray
  Or you will face the consequence
  The numb sensation on my face
  Slowly fades to pain
  
  (What have I done?) Why can't I find the words you seek?
  (Punished with vertigo?) Unsteadily before your feet I kneel
  (Never ending headache) Pain is all I feel
  (Can't tell what is real) But still I fucking
  
  Fall in line
  (Give your life)
  His love will last forever this time
  
  Another promise
  (another lie?)
  Wonder what secrets lie inside!
  
  Never alone, is the one who chooses the path of God
  Never alone is the one who calls heaven his home!
  Clear visions of His noble throne
  I must be obedient or I won't walk those streets of gold
  
  Devastation always seems to find its way
  God had no hand in your disobedience
  This pain you've brought on yourself
  This ultimate price you'll have to pay yourself
• 2. Sanctified Suffering (03:47)
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  Something growing, relentlessly writhing
  Swollen flesh, swollen wounds
  So tired I can barely move
  Oh I pray that this pain will be removed
  (Your sins)
  What have I done to deserve this?
  (Have brought)
  Is it a punishment from God?
  (Disgrace)
  I pray and I pray but it isn't helping
  (Upon us)
  Please God forgive me!
  Ghostly figures, white robes and garments
  Drain my blood, drain my marrow
  Scan my skull and pelvis
  A sterile prison, a clock that hesitates with every tick.
  Why won't no one tell me what is going on?
  Forworn and sedated, sleeplessly dreaming
  I feel his anger pierce my bones
  So tired but silently screaming
  Ambient beeps and whirs relentlessly drones
  Inside my deteriorating mind
  My salvation has been deprived
  By the cause of my disbelief?
  My sentence delivered in a pitiful tone
  OSTEOSARCOMA
  The more I try to keep them out, the louder they will get.
  Why hasn't he answered my prayers yet?
  Another day
  (another regret)
  Stolen from me!
  (Another breath)
  You have led me
  (Down this stray path)
  You have led me
  (to my inner wrath)
  His intent
  (I can't understand)
  I wither
  (every day that pass)
  Every day could be my last
• 3. Paradise Ablaze (03:38)
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  This seed has been sown
  Growing out of my control
  Left and disowned
  Yet again on my own
  
  Do not, oppose God's will
  Blasphemous procedures
  Satan lurks in these rooms
  
  Yet another lie to be told
  
  Why? Why won't you care? Close your eyes and pretend it isn't there?
  All this despair? Spare your thoughts and prayers I dont want to fucking hear
  
  Stories of a promised land
  The choice lies calm in your hands
  Show your trust to God
  Just give in and do as we say
  If you should misbehave
  If you find your power through hate
  Then for you my son only hell awaits
  
  I feel his presence all over me
  This darkness I've been taught to flee
  It reeks of sulphur as his hand turns to me
  What could he ever want from me?
  Maybe he is the answer I seek?
  Maybe he knows what is yet to be revealed?
  
  Why? Why won't you care? Close your eyes and pretend it isn't there?
  All this despair? Spare your thoughts and prayers, He's no longer here
  
  Violent scream shrieks through my head
  I wake up drenched in sweat as I am dragged out of my bed
  Pale gasping faces, frozen with dread
  He clenches his fists and takes aim for my head
  
  Could not reveal what I had seen
  Yet only faint memories
  A mirage of broken dreams
  Where He granted my wish to see
  See beyond these lies that held me
  Soon my mind shall be free
  I've seen the truth and your paradise will never speak to me
  
  Lied down and felt his warmth
  Watched as it all slowly ripped apart
  Cold and lonely once again I've been lied too
  BUT NOW I'VE FOUND MY TRUTH
• 4. Beyond the Scope of Light (04:07)
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  Let the story be told
  Let His guidance be your sympathy
  Ask and He shall answer
  May His words bring health and apathy
  
  No mortal has the power
  No mortal has control
  Mere men can not defy Him
  His law is ours to hold
  
  Your pain is His affection
  It's all part of the plan
  For in the everblack
  All will come to light
  
  For His cause we fight
  For they appear at night
  The demons made of shadows
  These souls are cursed with blight
  
  They're gonna tear you apart
  Dissect your every organ
  Crack your fucking skull (open)
  And look behind the curtains
  
  I've given you all I got
  My soul, my mind, my blood
  Your disobedience only makes you more of a coward
  There is no path, beyond the scope of light
  Thou art neither lord nor saviour
  But how shall I survive?
  In your presence I am weak
  (In their eyes I am just meek)
  But go away and I will perish
  Fear numbs the mind
  Always been blind
  Struggling with a purpose I can't find
  A gruesome death i've been assigned
  Another (soul left behind)
  
  They're gonna tear you apart
  Dissect your every organ
  Crack your fucking skull (open)
  And look behind the curtains
  
  Patterns in the scars
  Paintings in the cuts
  Tunnel Vision
  All I see is my own reflection
  
  Unanswered
  By the holy spirit
  My alleged
  Salvation
  
  Set me free from the eternal burden
• 5. Christless Ascension (05:07)
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  "Though you have fallen, you will rise
  When one sits in darkness the lord will be their light"
  I endure hell just to prove your faith?
  When the time comes, you shall meet me face to face
  
  You make me suffer, but you could never meet my eyes
  This pain is just your deepest fear in disguise
  I die for nothing, and still you fucking complain
  Come and face me once again when it's time to meet our end
  
  Rise! You shall rise!
  Let your light guide me?
  
  Blind! You are blind, blinded by
  The light your lord has promised
  
  Another religion of peace
  Nothing that will ever ease
  Pain is the only constant you've ever let me believe
  Wait til he realise
  I can now see through your lies
  Why let me die for nothing knowing only pain from my life
  
  You make me suffer, but you could never meet my eyes
  My pain is just your deepest fear in disguise
  I die for nothing, and still you fucking complain
  Come and face me once again when it's time to meet our end
  
  Rise! You shall rise!
  Let your light guide me?
  
  Blind! You are blind, blinded by
  The light your lord has promised
  
  Everything keeps spinning, trying to get a hold of reality
  Your right to listen was taken from you it seems to me
  Promised an eternity of paradise and it seems to be
  Far to gone, you already lost what you seek
  
  Rise! You shall rise!
  Let your light guide me?
  
  Blind! You are blind, blinded by
  The light your lord has promised
  
  Christ! You must obey our christ!
  Even if darkness shall fall
  
  Die! And when you die
  You will still burn in the fiery depths
  Same as everyone else
  
  Turn from the cross, as it engulfs in flames
  Watch when I rise, as you scream in vain
• 6. Wrath (03:15)
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  Lit your book ablaze
  See the flames as they rage
  See your world collapse
  Your sacred words turning to ash
  
  Hands of the Father
  You can't push me further
  Same old look of disgrace
  Another strike towards my face
  
  Down with your world order
  Take your beliefs with you down into your grave
  Your reign over me is over
  I'm sure your Christ makes you feel safe
  
  Tired to the brink of collapse
  But the chaos inside me fills me with wrath
  Look me in my eyes when I break off their heads
  Porcelain lies pestered with dread
  
  From the day I was born I was showered with deceit
  Lies, false promises, an all you can eat
  Build your life on hatred and watch people burn
  Remember it ain't wrong when it's all for your God
  
  If God put me here and loves me so
  Why the hell did He conjure this curse in my bones
  Can a God have infinite love
  When He tortures His children while standing above
  
  Tired to the brink of collapse
  But the chaos inside me fills me with wrath
  Look me in my eyes when I break off their heads
  Porcelain lies pestered with dread
  
  All I ever
  Received from you
  Heaps of suffering
  Filled me with wrath
  
  You perceive me
  As a demon
  So a demon
  I shall become
  
  I've had enough of you
  Filthy scum through and through
  I'm clearly not worthy
  Years and years of abuse
  
  Trust your God to guide you
  Toward your place to rest
  Heed my warning
  I will bring you down with me
• 7. Patricide (03:32)
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  Your time has come
  There is nothing I can do but to face the truth
  I can't see myself (next to you)
  The distorted resonance from my crumbling bones
  Has deafened all i've ever known
  A midnight mass
  Abducted by my flesh and blood
  A last resort (to expel this so called evil)
  But you won't make it out unscathed
  Between the holy pages lays the steel of retribution
  My blinded eyes were deceived to see
  Forced into a lie that I can't believe
  Don't know what's real (What is real?)
  I need a path to relief
  All that remains of me is a hollow soul begging for salvation
  My time has come, but you can't take my will to fight
  Born into hate (HATE)
  Isolated from the world I was forced into
  Blinded by rage now I'll punish you too
  YOU TOO!!!
  Help me quiet this hell in my mind
  This lifeless husk i'll leave for them to find
  There is no God here to hide behind
  Can you smell the sulphur? Seems your path was misaligned
  Your trembling voice ricochets of the walls
  Your dying screams forever will echo in these halls
  Guts out for God to see
  His faithful servant down on his knees
  Since birth you have done his bidding
  Don't fear me, the one who kills your body
  Fear your beloved christ
  He who kills your soul
  My blinded eyes were deceived to see
  Forced into a lie that I can't believe
  Don't know what is real. (What is real?)
  Your death shall be my path to relief!
  Ljuset bleknar for vart hugg du far
  Din kropp oppnas upp i ett dussintal sar
  Fruktlost motstand
  Av jord ar du kommen och jord skall du ater bli
• 8. Epitaph (04:59)
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  Collapse to the ground
  A final thud
  Sends the room into
  Silence
  
  The blood of father seeps between
  The cracks of Marble
  
  Cold still hands
  Wrapped around your sacred writing
  Drenched in blood of transgression
  
  Lifeless
  Body
  Undecipherable gaze
  
  Staring
  Watching
  Towards the ceiling fresco
  
  Serenity
  Keeps me warm despite this
  
  Gruesome
  Horrid
  Scene of betrayal
  
  Thoughts and feelings are fading away
  Rotting flesh is all that can stay
  Dismembered and disgraced in the house of the lord
  A smile on my lips as I let it all go
  
  Slipping in
  Slipping out
  Of my consciousness
  Red as roses
  Pale as snow
  My soul is trying to let go
  
  Sinking deeper
  Through the floor
  I welcome Death
  With open arms
  To guide me through his door
  
  Flickering
  Lighting
  Glimmer in beautiful green
  
  How could
  I fear
  Something so serene
  
  Fragments
  Protruding
  Reveals a path for my soul
  
  Painless
  Peaceful
  I depart from this life
  
  Father and son
  Fallen as one
  I will not run
  From what I have done
  
  Damnation is imminent
  Awaiting deliverance
  In deafening silence
  My soul slips from my hands
  
  Thoughts and feelings are fading away
  Brittle bones is all that can stay
  Contorted and fragile are the spikes peeking through
  A smile on my lips as I let it all go
  
  Sins and virtues are fading away
  The epitaph on our tomb is all that will stay
  Contorted and fragile are the spikes peeking through
  A smile on my lips as I look back at you
  
  Thoughts and feelings are fading away
  Brittle bones is all that can stay
  Contorted and fragile are the spikes peeking through
  A smile on my lips as I let it all go
  
  Sins and virtues are fading away
  The epitaph on our tomb is all that can stay
  Contorted and fragile are the spikes peeking through
  A smile on my lips as I look back at you
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